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Name: Tiffany
Country: United States
State: Virginia
Metro: Lynchburg
Birthday: 4/19/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: I like long walks on the beach...((jokes!))how can i be and think differently? how can i make change a good thing and a part of other peoples lives? how can i show them the freedom in Christ that is offered through the love of the Father? this is my interest. to show love, to give hope, and to serve all...to bring Him the glory, honor, and praise.aside from the biggest interest in my life, I LOVE music. i play guitar and sing. I have a dean 9/11 special edition for those of you who know about guitars. it's straight up bangin. i love people and i love my friends. i am somewhat of an entertainer...give me a room full of people. please. i love drama and using it to bring glory to my Father. i love good jokes and a great sense of humor. and of course, i love a good book. even though i'm dyslexic. ;)
Expertise: don't really have one...but i am pretty well rounded. and that's not because of the weight put on by 4 years of college.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  Just1Ziggy
Yahoo:  whatsheep
Member Since:
3/1/2005
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| well well well...it has been a GOOD LONG time since i've been on xanga. this past weekend, bird and i decided that we were going to aid in:
THE RESURRECTION OF XANGA
haha, yep. we had such a good time this weekend. bird, brittany, dustin, philliam, and amy were all here from TN and f-burg. crazy things happened...like people jumping off of our stairs and me gettin kidnapped and taken to roanoke for dunkin donuts at 3:30am in my pajamas. good times. these are the times that make you appreciate life and the people God places in your path.
speaking of God. wow. what He has done in my life since i used to write in this thing. so much has happened, so much has changed. i was so messed up back then. who knows what i was thinkin. last year, i began to really dig into Christ and bury my roots deeply into Him. right as i was really taking off, i met someone. Aaron James Stone...he was my GA, and at first i had no interest at all. Aaron quickly won me over though. i remember thinking when he asked me to be his "girl"..."are you ready for this, T?" "if you get in this, you're not getting out. no more playing games." honestly, i knew i wasn't ready for a relationship...but this guy was AMAZING, and i didn't want to let him go. I look back now and see how stupid i was. but that's what makes us stronger, right? anyways, we were happily together for about 6 months (officially). during that time, i began to put Aaron as my #1 and began losing sight and grip of Christ. Aaron, the godly man that he is, noticed this in me. he talked to me about it...we both cried and i promised to try harder to put God first. honestly, i didn't want to try. i liked Aaron being my #1 and i liked not having to go to church and not having to work on my relationship with Him...i liked being a flirt again, and i liked hangin out with people who were not pushing me forward in His direction.
because of this, Aaron broke up with me. this was in August about two weeks before school started. his reasons were 1) my walk with Christ was way off...he could just tell that i wasn't striving for Christ anymore and he did not want to be the one to stand in the way of that...2) our communication had become ridiculous. i believe this was because i was so off spiritually that we couldn't understand each other like we used to. and 3) i was becoming the girl he had only heard of and had never wanted to meet...aka the flirt. which is true...the only friends i had in lynchburg over the summer were a couple of guys and a girl or two. both girls were always preoccupied with their b/f's...so it ended up bein me, josh, and joe...all the time. Aaron did not like that at all. I found out later that one of the main reasons he hated it so much was because he had been cheated on in the past. i wish i had known and understood then. but then again, God needed to take Aaron away to get me to realize who was the ONLY love that would NEVER leave me. the ONLY love that was worth putting ALL of my time and energy into. the ONLY love that deserved all of my praise, attention, adoration, and unconditional love.
it's funny how all of these reasons stem back to one thing...my roots in Christ. didn't have any. they weren't deep enough when i started dating Aaron and were quickly pulled up by the thought of love, marriage, and everything that comes with it. obviously nothing ever happened between me and my guy friends over the summer. we're still friends, but not as close. it was never like that for us. we're all just very loving-touchy-feely people...and none of us ever really thought too much about it. Aaron was different...and i should have respected that as his g/f, but there's nothing i can do now. i just know what to do for next time. my relationship with Aaron meant so much more to me than any friendship...i definitely feel pretty stupid about the way i handled things. i thought he loved me (though he had never told me)...i really though he was going to tell me that he loved me when he came home from his summer internship/tour. i knew i loved him for a few months. i just never thought he'd break up with me over something that seemed so silly to me. but when it came down to it, it was the spiritual side of things that trickled down into every other aspect. i was so blind to see what had happened when i took my spiritual guard down.
since then, i have learned so much. i feel like i have matured more this year then i have in my whole high school and college experience. i had to struggle through loving someone so much to the point of tears almost every night. and through that, i saw how Christ sees me when i leave Him. i struggled through not knowing in what direction i should go, and through that, learned to trust Him more (which was incredible to learn when you think you already trust Him fully). i struggled through friendships that practically fell apart in my lap, and through that i learned how to treat others better than myself and in what way to show them love (read 5 love languages!)...i also learned how to love Him more and put Him into my friendships. i struggled through my plans for life falling completely apart, and through that i learned that He is the one controlling my life and has a plan to where it's going...i gave my life to Him years ago! i struggled through self-control issues (and still am)...and through that, i'm learning to get into Him more, obeying Him, listening to convictions, and fall in love with Him alone...first and foremost.
also, i have been learning so much just this semester about being a servant. serving and ultimately loving others, and showing Christ through that, has been amazing. it will be something that i will learn continuously, i'm sure. and this whole year, God has been revealing the freedom that ALL Christ followers have in Him. honestly, i don't like the word "Christian"...the world has given a skewed view of that...i say "Christ follower" or something of that nature now. it just means something different to me. i feel so free and so becoming as a woman following after Him. it's been the most amazing journey. i am beginning to KNOW who He is...and in searching to know Him, He has begun to reveal Himself to me in everything. i have no idea where He's going to take me, but i have this awesome feeling that it's going to be more than i could have ever imagined or asked for. i have a feeling it will be in some big city, far away...like chicago, seattle, portland, or LA. i just have a feeling. and if i don't end up in any of those..i'm ok with that. 
all in all, the past couple of year have been absolutely amazing. i have had more ups and downs than i ever thought i'd have...been on more twist and turns then ever...and been completely in the dark at times. but all along, my Savior was guiding me, leading me to what He wants for me. and i'm so excited. i'm so excited to be free in Him. free from legalism, sin, and anything else that stands in the way of a genuine relationship with my Daddy. i am His. i am free to SERVE Him.
oh and did i mention that i got a mentor this year? it's been a good thing. i recommend it to everyone...let the older teach the younger! i had the idea planted in my head today to talk to my prof (rich brown) about his wife possibly discipling me next year...which is much different than a mentor. i'm also hardcore praying about what ministry God wants my full attention for next year. i've been on vision for two years, and it's been great...but i think it may be time to go. and He is opening doors to work with my church's middle school group. at first, i was not interested...but the more i think about it, the better it feels. i'm not the greatest with that age group, and i could use the experience. we'll see what happens. i'm just praying that He lays it out plainly for me.
well, enough about me. XANGA HAS BEEN RESURRECTED. and that's just exciting in itself. | | |
| i have LOTS of hw. LOTS. sooo, i'm gunna go do that. pray that i get it done and that it gets done well! and pray for my finances, apartment/request to get off campus situation, for energy, and for peace/rest in the Lord! ahhh! i'm gunna need it!
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| wow, so i just found out today that i have like a 5-10% chance that i'll come back to LU next semester. i'm very sad, but happy at the same time...why am i happy bout this? cuz i realized why i've been so stretched this semester financially. see, i've been askin God for some time now to give me the faith that i used to have in Him. my first semester at LU, my mom and i just drove up and we had NO idea if i was actually going to be able to get a room or anything. but God had it all together. i've been able to come here for three semesters barely knowing if i was gunna be able to come or not. finances are killers. anyways, back to my story...this semester i have a much better paying job as a server at the olive garden...last year i was only a host. so, i've been kinda leaning on my own strength to make my bills. i've had a LOT more to pay this semester from different bills and such. so i haven't felt like i've had as much faith in Him...i've TOTALLY been relying on myself, like i could actually do this on my own. not to mention, my parents/family have been a true blessing in helping me financially...they just send me money gifts to help with my bills and such. it's been a GREAT blessing. but i've basically been doin it on my own. or at least the majority of it. so recently especially i've been asking God to give me faith/trust in Him like i used to have...so that i depend on Him alone. haha, great thing to pray huh... so basically, God's teaching me to have faith/trust in Him alone, and i didn't even realize till today that all of this has been an answer to my prayers! man, i love how He reveals stuff like this to us. i just wish i woulda been focusing on my relationship with Him earlier on in the semester...i was at first, then slacked off...and now i'm getting back on track again. and God is already answerin me!
other than that, life has been REALLY awesome lately. i LOVE my vision team. they are "pretty much" and "basically" "amazing"...haha, we say those three phrases ALL the time. we went on two weekends in a row. the first was just around the corner from the school, but the second one (this past weekend) was in VA beach. it was SOOO awesome, we all totally bonded and on the kids are in such need of seeing people who are buck-wild for Jesus. this past weekend was totally awesome. three teens got saved and the rest made some kind of decision for the Lord. it was so great to hear that, cuz a lot of times you don't actually see it happen cuz you're just lovin on kids and showin Christ through hangin out with them...but while you're doin that, one of your teammates is around the corner sharin the gospel to someone who is searching for Christ...and BAM - someone gets saved! YES! it's so great how our team works together...like seriously, we all fit so well together. it's weird too, cuz we're all sooo different. yet bound in love through Christ. we all have the same passion - to make Him known. and that, my friend, is what makes us all run together.
so basically, things are goin great right now, cept the money thing - and though it may suck to not know what is gunna happen next, it's still awesome to know that God has plans for me and that i will grow in my faith/trust through it all. so yeah...it's pretty much great either way. man, i LOVE Him!
p.s. - i know it's not Christmas yet, but my roommate and i LOVE elf, and we haven't gotten to watch it yet this year...we watched that, mean girls, and hot chick like a bajillion times last year. it was great. | | |
| it is soooo flippin cold! arrr! | | |
| what a day...yawn.
sooo, i can't wait for formal friday. i totally bought a new tie from goodwill and it's flippin awesome. and it was only a dollar...so therefore, it was an awesome achievement. ok, leave me some lovin.
p.s. - pray for my focus on school! i want to make A's and B's this semester...not C's and D's! and def no F's!!! hopefully... | | |
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